Cravings

There are times in each of our lives when things just don't work out the way they should. The thing that I have desired year after year seems to just simmer with every second until I have had enough and have boiled over with tears, due to its absence.  All I want is the person who will be there for me. The one that loves me for me. The one that will hold me in their arms just so I can feel safe. I want that special someone that will listen to me, that will always hold it down even though they know the wrongs, rights, imperfections and tragedies about me.  I want the kind of person that won't kiss me, unless these a good reason, that way a kiss will be something special not something commonly given between the two of us. I want the kind of lover that can see my tears,  and their only reaction be the words I love you. I don't want the kind of lover that apologizes for every little fight or argument, or even miss conception we have. I want the kind of partner that will go to the end with me. The kind that brings me back to a place where love is pure. I want the type that will hug me from behind, only to see whether they've scared me or not. I want the one I can talk to as I please. I want the one that likes to go on walks. I want the one who spends time thinking about our future. I want the one that will put a ring on my finger even though we are not married. I want the type of significant other that will be childish with me, the one who will dance in the rain with me and not regret a thing when we're sick. I want the kind of lover who isn't afraid to tell me that I look far from gorgeous in the morning. I want the type that makes me laugh so hard that I cry. Bottom line is I want the one who loves me for me , the one who's  only regret would be dying after me because they couldn't bare to see me gone. THIS IS WHAT I WANT, I JUST WANT SOMEONE THAT IS TRUE.
 

As a woman I should give..part 2 (end)

If there is one thing that I have learned this year, I would say it was this very  small but clear message; even the people you trust, love, and care for the most...well they may very well be the ones to put you down, and act as if you are nothing but thin, crisp air. For the past three years of my life, I was devoted to one particular cause. I wasn't weird or obsessive or anything of those sorts, Simply I was in love. Three years of my life wasted, incomplete. Is it right for someone to decide that it is okay, for them to lie to you, day after day, year after year? I'm not sure how to answer that myself. How could you continuously lie for so long. If you never truly gave a simple care in the world, why hold on to me for so long. I thought he  he love me, cared for me, even claimed he wanted to marry me, though your actions clearly speak louder than words. Though time after time, I've sacrificed so much, and for what, heartache, tears, and pain that lingers in the back of my mind, that travels through the tears in my eyes. Though as I can see you never took this into consideration. Maybe you do love me, but your just to insecure, immature, and senseless to embrace this. One day you'll get it, I'm talking about the fact that I'm safe in someone's arms other than yours and the simple fact the karma will give you back every little lie you ever spun, every bit of pain that was afflicted upon me because of you, surly you get the point. I personally ache for you to feel like you have nothing but the smog in the air left to your name but instead I say so long, farewell, and when the time comes you'll understand more than the words that I breathe.....