Him

Is it possible , that I am really that wrapped up in his (our) love that it's hard to see clearly. It's like I'm trapped in a devastating whirlpool, fighting for air. I'm a victim of love, and suffering from several blows to the heart. They say"all is fair in love and war" What they failed to imply was that love is war. So it is here and now that I find myself engaged in combat, my heart exposed, and not realizing the potential threat that I have brought forth. I don't know what it is about my significant other, after all we are always on and off again, this has been the case for quite some time now. It's like when I'm with him I have to make sure that he knows, I am not permanent that way he will not take me for granted. It works though because he never has. I hate  being without him, it drives me crazy, especially when he has semi moved on and another chick has "artificial" claim on his heart. ( I want him back phase)We have a certain bond that at times I can't seem to understand. We've never had any kind of sex with  one another, so that's not the reason why we stay together. It's something I can't comprehend. The fact that he takes a few minutes in the morning to say good morning and good night, well I'd assume that would make anyone in a relationship crack a smile. He listens to all my crap, he never judges me, even knowing my past, and everything prior to him, he still "appears" to love me for me. He could be the one that I've been waiting for my entire life, but only God knows. I love what we have,whatever that is, I'm still unsure at times <3