Over the course of three years, I thought I had something that my mind is slowly bringing to light wasn't really there. I love my on again off again thing, sure it works, I thought I was happy, thought I was okay with what was going on, thought the distance between us would never be a problem. The only thing that hasn't changed is the love I have for him. I'm pretty sure that this love will always be carried with me no matter the circumstance. I don't even know how I've been so strong, I mean with all the time that has passed, all the issues, and circumstances, all I can say is wow! For the first time in three years he actually made me shed tears. It wasn't really anything in particular that made me cry, wasn't even something he hadn't already done. He made me cry because after every little thing he does, whether good or bad, I had never cried. Sure I admit I have been gracious, because you can all assume and assume right. There were definitely times where I was super mad, or incredibly disappointed. Still I never cried. It's just that with all the recent drama, I had recalled all our moments from day one I guess I was just reflecting on us, on life, and well I cried because I actually loved him, it never occurred to me that my love for him was deep. Sadly with all the recent events, something in my mind clicked, does he really love you like he say he does. Statics say no, but I fight to believe otherwise.
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